I am at our restaurant and it wasn’t the same. For starters, I was with someone who doesn’t even compare to you. For the main course, I wasn’t nearly as comfortable as when with you. And for desert, he said he was allergic to cats! Who is allergic to cats, nowadays? Unthinkable.
Going to our restaurant with someone new is kind of like a test and nobody passes it. Everytime I try, I try to go with an open mind (and heart) and everytime I get the same feeling – or rather, none at all.
The other test is her. If they’re allergic there isn’t even a contest but if they’re not, she’ll let me know. She can sniff out (pun intended) the drama months away.
I once told a friend that to have lived is a privilege and that to have loved is the biggest gift of all. To this day I stand by it. Loving you was the second most epic thing to have happened to me (sorry, no contest in love when she is involved) and even if you and I are no longer together, I know that it was worth it.
It’s funny – I always read about these epic love stories (and saw them in films, too) and always believed it was utter bollocks but then she came along and taught me a love I didn’t know existed. A love that has no limits and is pure – so pure the word “pure” falls short. And then you came along and slapped me in the face with a love that I had laughed about in the past. A love so alive that still revives me to this day.
These tests give me peace – either you pass it or you don’t. And if you don’t, then why bother? What will I do if the restaurant closes? What will I do when she dies?
I have mostly given up on finding someone that will pass the test you established and obliterate hers like you did. I also definitely know that she is unique and the love we share is impossible to replicate so I guess that when these things happen I will be prepared.
I have a feeling though that nothing can prepare for such a loss. I certainly haven’t felt prepared when our love died, how can I be for a “permanently closed” on Google Maps?
Still – I feel fortunate. I don’t think many people can say they have loved like I have, that they have been loved like I have. So, for starters I had a great love. For the main course I still have an epic love. And for desert I will have the tiramisù. And bring the bill, please, he’s allergic to cats.